On CNY

CNY was a lot more eventful when Dad was still around. Dad's side is more traditional and 'religious' in terms of the visiting - and ever since he left in 2009, there wasn't much of a motivation to visit his relatives. Our presence (his children) seems to make his siblings remind them of him, which perhaps, is not so good. Mom was away in Bali for her usual solo holidays, so i decided to bring the 3 of us (my elder sis, younger bro and myself) to my grandma's house for a small reunion dinner, so it wouldn't feel so 'empty'. 1st day of CNY was spent cleaning the house (yes, i know it's supposed to be 'bad luck' but better late than never i'd say!) Went for a run and watched 'Homecoming' on my own. Quite a heartwarming and funny movie for the family in the spirit of CNY. Pretty strange to watch it alone, heh. Perhaps i'm beginning to learn from my mom's solo habits.
My other siblings went to visit their other halfs family. I had many strange dreams the past few night, combined with people and memories from the past, and with those in the present. Makes me wonder how some old friends are doing, perhaps part of me wishes to restore what was left to die. Some memories just can't be erased with time, no matter how hard i try not to think about it. Somehow they keep coming back to haunt me, not that it's a bad thing, but it does bring back a myraid of emotions... Perhaps they'll become blurrer with time, perhaps, just perhaps.