It's been a long time now...

it's been almost 3 years since my last post. I seriously doubt anyone's reading this anymore, but I decided to pay a visit to my old blog and brought back my memories, both good and bad, as well as tears of joy and sadness. I guess i'm someone who reminisces, which is not very good, as it makes it difficult for me to move on in life. So many things have happened in the last 3 years. Getting married has been the biggest change in my life, and now, i'm going to be a mummy soon. Sometimes I still do miss the carefree life I once had, studying overseas, travelling, the close friendships I had, mission trips, etc. At times, I still yearn to stretch out my wings and fly... Dreams yet to be fulfilled, places yet to go, experiences yet to be experienced. It's been more than 6 years in prison, my bond has ended, and perhaps i'm looking for what's over the horizon... Many doors out there, but I don't know which one to knock and which will open for me. Is it the right time? Is it God's will? So many questions, but no answers... Dear Lord, please help me keep my focus on You - not to let my mind or heart wander, but to seek You in everything. To learn from the past, appreciate it, but also move on, live in the present, and look towards the future... Help me be thankful for everything, remember that I'm not living for myself, but for you alone. Even if nobody reads this, I know you hear the cries of my heart, and you understand me through and through. Change me, dear Lord, from the inside out, to be the woman you created me to be.